Listen to what my heart says, forgiveness is not a question, I NEVER hated you.
I gave my all to love you... even if embracing you meant I will be bruised and cut to my very heart, still I embraced you, with hopes that if you see me bleeding you will lay down your armour of thorns and nails.... but, you didn't. In fact even your eyes, they've become so sharp, that in everytime you look at me … you cut me so deep, it penetrated to the very dephts of my soul.
I wanted to risk it all, even if embracing you means enduring pain at its essence and bleeding to death... but, lately it felt like pain has died in me. Pain seemed to have vanished into the oblivion of my soul... am I dead? have I died already?
In the absence of pain, I didn't notice I have stopped embracing you. In the absence of pain, I didn't notice I have removed my arms around you. In the absence of pain, I didn't notice I have stepped away from you...
In the absence of pain, I thought I have died already... I thought I have died already, instinctively I removed my arms around you and stepped away... I stepped away, fearing death will embrace you as well...
you have bruised me, and cut me to the very depths of my soul and... I died. but even in death, I gave my all to love you. I removed my hands around you and stepped away so death will not be able to get hold of you.
so please let go...
behold me no longer with your sharp eyes... as you have let me die, please let me dwell in my death peacefully.
